Author : Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
Publisher : Adrian G Dumitru
Page : 116 pages
File Size : 48,7 Mb
Release : 2024-05-21
Category : Philosophy
ISBN : 8210379456XXX
A MARRIED MAN … PERCEPTIONS ABOUT … LOVE by Adrian Gabriel Dumitru Pdf
And what if one day … after stop loving someone that you liked so, so much … you decide to replace that big whole from your soul with loving all the people from the timeline of your life?! Today i believe that to understand the life itself we need to experience … love … in whatever form it might appear to us. It sounds weird, or even as a total nonsense … but in the end … following the paths of life …. I always realized that everything comes by itself. Not so long time ago, before becoming 40 …. I heard lots of strange ideas about the change is happening in man’s perspective about life … the next second he comes to this age. In fact … the truth is that only 2 versions worth to be mentioned … and i saw that at all my friends that had this age. One theory was that we start to have all types of medical problems … and the other one was that the man starts to be obsessed by love … love stories …. and all the women from the timeline of his life. I never had medical problems in my life … so i totally ignored the first theory ….and on another hand, working in sales for more than 20 years … i met thousands of ladies … but never had the intention to cheat my wife. So … i totally ignored both theories, but just few days before becoming 40 … a very beautiful lady … appeared in my life. She was the most unexpected person i could dream that i would start a love story with … but … it happened. The theory was right … or at least one of it. I fell in love … with that amazing soul … and i started to write all my feelings and everything related to us. I wrote so much … that one day i realized that i published 10 books carrying the word … love … inside of the title. But … same as any other story from the history of the human being … my love story had a beginning, the story itself …. and the end. Today … looking back in time, i see just the 10 books i wrote … but i would not like to read them again. Never … In my last book about love stories … “Loving, but not understanding where the love goes” … the last 2 essays i wrote tell everything it was in my heart and soul … “I miss you a lot, but i don’t want you back in my life! Never again!” … and “Awakening can be obtained at the end of the love story!”. I left the love story dissatisfied of all happened … but still … i was chasing for love. Getting back into her arms … was useless. I knew it … and even if i lied myself for such a long time … she was the same as my wife … a shrew … or at least this is how i saw both of them. I decided to let my life continue … near my family, totally forgetting the love story …. but still not ignoring my huge desire for … love. The smaller kid ….told me one day while arguing with my wife … “ You are not allowed to leave us. You are our parents and you don’t have the right to do that.” Ignoring those words … was equal with betrayal. …. A huge one. So i remained near my wife and kids … doing my duty, understanding the dharmic side of life … but still something was whispering me all the time …”love, love, love, love … love ….” I thought i need to find another lady … but my wife was paying attention now to any small detail … so i could not repeat the love story i had with that crazy lady. I was meditating a lot. On the scene of my life, i met lots of other people in the same situation as myself … that ended the love story and …. somehow started to be in a relationship with themselves. They discovered a new path …. the one of self love. But i did not know anything about the subject … and not even wanted to bother becoming more profound and connected to myself. I actually did not wanted to start a new relationship either …. with someone else … either with myself. I knew i needed something else into my life… but did not understood the new path i need to follow. And i continued … searching. On and on …. and on. One day … a year ago … while having a fire at one of my properties … a heart appeared on the roof of the building. Everyone saw the heart … except myself. Later on … i saw it in the pictures taken by the people that were there at the time. Again …. I thought that i should find a new mistress and have a parallel life again … without my wife to find out. But … i was wrong. So … damn wrong. Time passed and … and the russian-ukrainian war began … and i started to host lots of refugees. There were people that needed unconditional love and support … and i somehow connected to the all of them … realizing that i can be in a weird love story with all those women coming from Ukraine. They were ladies of different age and personality … but i loved having them into my life. I somehow started to understand that even if i thought that being in love can have only 2 options … loving a soulmate …. or yourself … i finally saw a totally new path …. and that was being in a lovely relationship … practicing another type of love …. with anyone was appearing in my reality. That of course … could not offend in any way my wife …. and also could not affect the marriage i had … but … Yes …. It was … an amazing trick … and i just loved it. I finally understood what Dalai Lama or Pope Francis were saying … about … unconditional love for all the people from this world. Reading their books … i even had moments when i thought the 2 of them were idiots …. but i was the idiot one. My marriage … was indeed karmic … having nothing to do with love … but my youngest son learnt me the meaning of … dharma. My mistress … which even if i loved so, so much … but don’t even want to hear her name again … taught me … what love … means. She was somehow a combination between karma and love … and saw her at the end of our love story more as a teacher …. than a soulmate. Most probably i have totally different values as those 2 shrews … my wife and my mistress … but i am happy i met the ucrainian ladies. The abstract love story i started with them …. all of them … no matter of age, personality, perspectives of life … was a much better path for continuing my life journey. I finally understood that if i would know to connect to the people that appear on the timeline of my life … and love them unconditionally…. somehow that love that i was chasing so, so much … since i was a kid … will come back to me in infinite quantities. I was looking for love … and i had to see the meaning of love story … from a totally different perspective. But … now everything was clear to me. I knew what i had to do … and which path to follow. My expectation was as my wife to love me …. but she was a karmic character that i could not replace … or my mistresses to love me unconditionally…. but she was the teacher that made me realize what the concept of love … means. My life journey … had to continue … and the ucrainian ladies showed me such a beautiful perspective … i never thought about. I was glad … of this awakening moment. So … loving you?! … loving me?! … or … simple loving any soul that appears in our lives?! Well … maybe from my position where i am now … being in a love story with everyone … is probably the best scenario i could live. Am glad i see things today … as that. Might be your perception … or not. Might sound as a total nonsense all what i am writing …. but maybe it will be much interesting to hear weird ideas … than the boring ones. So … let the journey begin … and we will see if i succeed to really connect to my real self … so … that i can find the inspiration to express myself clear enough … that in the end you will try at least one time … this kind of abstract love story … being in love with all the people from your life.
